My daughter is turning 5 in just a few weeks! And will be starting Kindergarten this year! (I am definitely going to cry) I am so excited for her. As she reaches another milestone…It just makes me sad that she is growing up so fast. As I look back to when I was pregnant, and I had know idea God was blessing me with a precious little girl.
Let’s go back in time shall we….
The moment I found out I was pregnant with our third child… I was so so excited!! I was nervous, anxious, and praying to God please, please bless us with a healthy baby girl. Especially, considering this was going to be our last child we had planned on having.. I just enjoyed everything about my pregnancies. By the grace of God I did not experience any complications. Everything was smooth sailing for the most part. We made the decision that this would be our last child simply because three is ENOUGH!! LOL! The morning I woke up to the day of the Ultra sound appointment I thought Ok, Lord here we go…after all the praying I did, and after all the dreams I had about having a girl… I was honestly still a tad bit nervous. So, I went to get dressed and thought I have got to be in the girl power spirit… So, I slapped on my pink adidas running pants (girl power!), and was out the door! (I know I’m nuts -LOL)
Sitting in that Ultra sound room was the quietest my husband and myself had ever been. In just a few minutes later the Ultra Sound tech announced we were having a GIRL!!!! Overjoyed was definitely an understatement…. I was so happy that God saw fit to bless us with a daughter. Of course, I couldn’t control myself…I immediately called all my family to share the good news!! Fast forwarding to the arrival of Kaylee. It was a perfect day, and even though this was my third time around…I was the most nervous for this delivery…I don’t know why- I was shaking and I remember telling my husband how nervous I was … I think maybe because I was induced because she was sitting so low, she was on my nerve, and it was kind of painful, and I would have shock waves going through my body here and there…nothing too serious…but the Doc assured me it was safe to go ahead and induce at 39 weeks. All I had to do was look at my husband, and I knew we were thinking the same thing… LET’S DO IT!! Let’s face it we couldn’t wait any longer 🙂
KAYLEE AMYA- was born on 3/29/11 weighing in at 7lbs 4 oz. Weirdly enough I had a dream I was having a girl and in my dream she was 7lbs and 3 oz. (freaky right). I had made the decision prior to labor that I wanted to have a Tubal ligation done. Because I know how I get… I say I don’t want any more but as soon as the kids turn two-here I go with baby fever…I just don’t have the time for that! LOL! We would definitely be that family 17 kids and counting…or is it like 23 kids and counting now?!! I don’t know…either way that is where I was going to end up for sure!
Bringing our little girl home on a rainy afternoon in March…(As I remember the smell in the air-I love the smell of rain in the spring) it was just so surreal… I couldn’t wait to do everything for her…I couldn’t wait to get up with her at night (even though this would leave me delirious after not so much sleep…but I didn’t care. She was my little girl and she was all mine! The BABY YEARS…. sure do go by fast. I mean I look up and she is two…and you know what that means…yep, I had baby fever…see I told you! But I was not stuck in that fever long. Kaylee actually slept really well, she was a good baby! Never really cried until she needed changing or was hungry or something like that. Needless to say.. the baby years were fine.
Now, when they get to that 3 year old range that’s when it all sinks in…and my easy days were over….it’s serious now…she is soaking everything up like a sponge, and was maturing and talking and gaining her sense of her personality before our eyes. . Now, I AM freaking out-my little baby who is now a little girl, who will grow into a young lady,and mature into a woman…and I WAS RESPONSIBLE!!! Oh, Lord! Help me! Realizing she was going to turn to me for all the girly stuff…I thought -I am going to have to teach her how to be a young lady, how to carry herself, how to be herself, how to be strong, how to believe in herself, be there to talk her through her first crush, her first heartbreak, racism, and mean girls… The pressure is on dude! Am I going to give her the right advice? Am I going to be the woman she looks up to? Am I going to be an example of the woman she wants to be? Will I be the Wife she strives to be? Will I be the Mother she wants to be? Boy- oh boy- I have a lot on my plate.
All I can do is give Kaylee my best. Teach her morals and values. Be the best Mom I can be to her. Love her, pray with her, encourage her, push her….and most of all SHOW HER! I have to lead by example. Teach her how to be a #GIRLBOSS… If this means checking myself at times, making sure I am in the right head space…than that’s what it is. Our daughter’s depend on us to be good to them. Our daughter’s will love just like we do. To my Momma’s out there, be good to your daughter’s. As we protect them as children, they will grow up and protect us. As our children go through life, and as they may face difficult decisions, and the dangerous paths they may come across, we have to reflect on all that we taught them, and pray they carry out our teachings. When my daughter graduates high school, and it is time for her to take her own path- I don’t want to cry because I am scared for her…I don’t cry because I know I didn’t prepare her for the world, and I’m scared she can’t handle it. I want to be crying because she is all grown up now, and is becoming a young lady who was once my little baby girl, and I know she is ready to take over the world. This month it’s all about Kaylee Coo! Noot Noot,Coop, and The Coopster! (these will always be my nicknames for her. Yes! She responds to all of them 😉
To all my Mom’s out there: What’s your biggest fear as a Mother?
As we will all raise our children differently I feel this post you can all relate to because we are Mother’s who want the best for our babies, and even though it can be difficult at times…it’s inevitable our kids are going to grow up, and it is our job to make sure they are ready to face the world. Let’s teach our daughter’s to be what God created them to be! I am sure we will learn a few things along the way. Being a parent is trial and error… until next time… Be Bold! Be Brave! Be Kind! #girlpower
Thanks for reading ♥
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