Damn, I am 32 years old. I totally didn’t mean to start this post off this way. It was the first thing that came to mind lol!
Signed-my split personality- (ignore her) Let’s get into it…
Sexy in my own right:
I think there is a misconception of what sexy should be. After you become a Wife and Mother your focus is a little different. I am realizing my sexy is getting dressed for a date night or a girls night out. I feel sexy when I am at dinner with my husband, and I get to wear that lipstick I bought 3 months ago for the first time. I feel sexy when I am out with a home-girl, and my hair is laid and my jeans are fitting right. I feel sexy when I’m laughing and swapping Mommy moment stories with my girls, or having those deep conversations about the expectations on life. That’s when I feel my sexiest- Let’s REWIND a little (before I realized this.)..Funny thing is just a week ago my husband asked me “When is the last time you felt sexy?” And I couldn’t answer him. I remember thinking “Why don’t I have an answer?” It wasn’t that I didn’t have an answer- I just wasn’t sure if it was the right answer? The word SEXY can be intimidating. Your mind reverts to things that are “sexy” Like: lingerie, heels, and so on. Depending on what sexy is to you. I thought about it some more-and what my husband was really asking me was ” When was the last time you have felt your best?” I was looking way to deep into it (which I always do) I remember automatically thinking well I haven’t worn lingerie in a while, I have had so much anxiety with our new move around the corner, and with the kids getting out of school, and summer approaching with no plans for summer camps. ” I don’t have time to feel sexy” But I am absolutely wrong. Just because I’m not walking around in nighties and fury high-heels – doesn’t put a cap on my sexy. I am me! And that’s sexy.
Age ain’t nothing but a number:
As I get older I am always questioning if what I am doing is appropriate. I could pick up a top that’s cut for cleavage, and clearly put it back-because I’m in my 30’s- like what does that have to do with my choice in a top? I guess I am cautious on how I dress because I am a wife and a mother-and I don’t want to give off the wrong impression. Now, this definitely doesn’t mean I have to dress in skirts that touch my ankles and turtle necks, but there is a line- and there is a sense of being comfortable. It’s not my age that matters it’s my position in my life, and my responsibility I carry. And honestly I am much happier in a T-shirt. I have always been this way-I literally have to force myself to put real clothes on most of the time. Sexy shouldn’t be measured by what you’re wearing, but by how you are feeling. You could be dressed to the max, but feel like crap on the inside. Sorry, not sorry- I don’t want to to feel like that. To be completely content with who you are is sexy. My answer to my husband should have been.. Now! I feel sexy right here and now sitting next to you in the passenger side of this car. Your age does not define who you are- be youthful , and be FREE- 30’s is not old by far-but time is flying and you can’t help but look back in retrospect, and try and figure out where the hell did the last ten years go.
The best I have ever felt:
I can honestly say in the past 5 years I have grown in knowing who I am. I have become so much more confidant in my own radiance. True story- I hated taking pictures as a child. When my Mom would come and try and take a picture of me- I would throw my hands up in front of my face. For so long I was shy Ivy…. but now I am snapping selfies left and right- It sounds vain, but I have grown to love myself and who I am. I have grown so much mentally, physically, spiritually, and emotionally. And I am loving who I have become as a Woman. At this time in my life I am feeling the best I have felt about myself in a long time. Now, are there days I feel like blah? Sure. That’s natural -we are human beings. But at the end of the day when I look at my 32 year old self in the mirror… I am happy and sexy. Be you and get ya sexy on!
When do you feel your best? Comment below ↓
Thank you for reading♥
Posted by: Ivy B.